Got Love?

Love is magical, love is beautiful
Love is caring, and it is wonderful
Love treasures, love remembers
Love does not discriminate
Love is everything sweet and nice
put into one.

But love gets greedy,
love causes pain
love suffocates and it kills
love destroys a soul
and hardens it
love causes dilemma

Only human can turn
something simple into
a complicated crisis

Have you?

Have you ever been in love
You could touch the moonlight
When your heart is shooting stars
You're holding heaven in your arms
Have you ever been so in love?
Have you ever walked on air
Ever felt like you were dreamin'
When you never thought it could
But it really feels that good
Have you ever been so in love?
The time I spent waiting
For something that was heaven sent
When you find it, don't let go
Have you ever said a prayer
And found that it was answered?
All my hopes have been restored
And I ain't looking anymore
Have you ever been so in love, have you?
Some place that you ain't leavin'
Somewhere you're gonna stay
When you finally found the meaning
Have you ever felt this way?
'Cause have you ever been so in love, so in love
You could touch the moonlight
You can even reach the stars
Doesn't matter near or far
Have you ever been so in love?

I have, and I am still ...
and I pray that I will forever
And I cannot thank
Everyone and Allthing
enough for making it happen!
Benez et protegez nous, svp

Is it you?

I have been so overwhelmed with this feeling of sadness for a few days now. I do not where it comes from at all. Thinking that it is depression I am getting, but then it is not the kind of depression I normally feel. At times, especially during the night, the intensity is so astounding that it has the ability to stop my breathing. Feels like every breath I take could be the last one, so harsh so savage, an onerous task. Where does this come from? Is it just a feeling from deep within me, or is it a sign of acknowledgement? If it is the latter, why me? Is this a gift, or is it merely a curse? A silent plea from the one who sent it out? Who am I to accept this confession? No possible explaination for it. Well, it is more logical to accept the former. This will go eventually, and life resumes its pace once again. I can only feel, I cannot grasp you. Let me breathe freely, show yourself, let it go ... and may peace be with you.

An opened mind

The norms of society influence the behavior and the thought process of the people who are in it. On a positive note, courtesy, consideration of others, and respect are some of the values that should be a norm in any society. However, many people are blinded to these positive values. Instead, they are more apt to absorb the negatives. In a society where the norm is to behave as though no one else is better than they, is just ignorance. We may debate over ethnocentrism. However, ignorance is not ethnocentric. People have to realize that we depend on each other to survive and thrive. When people refuse to leave their cocoons and open their eyes to the rest of the world, they stay stagnant in their perceived perfect society. They do not better themselves because they are already “perfect” in the society that they are. With their mind set on themselves being “perfect”, they have placed on their set of blinders. When others point out to them that they are not in sync with the more positive ways, they build resistance. Perhaps they are afraid of change, one might say. It is actually more of ignorance and arrogance. They believe strongly and constantly portray themselves as sweet and sensitive. Thus, unable to see that others are having difficulties in relating to the way that they are because of their hidden faulty ideology, that they refuse to recognize. Perhaps these people should look more closely at themselves before they ask questions.

I wonder

Tomorrow will be my first day teaching microbiology laboratories. I am nervous and at the same time excited about it. I just hope everything will be going well. Oh well ... we will see. Chance ou malchance, on verra bien .. comme toutes les choses dans ma vie! Got my favorite cd of the corrs, talk on corner. Love the album ... I missed the songs so much. Brought back memories of yesterdays ... one of few albums where I love most of the songs. Got to go now... relaxing to my favorite songs while preparing for tomorrow.
Peace to the world and Stop seal clubbing!!

Got Lesson?

Mistakes well learnt will never ever be repeated! That is so damn true!

Where are they?

Courtesy, like common sense, is getting more and more rare nowadays. Common sense is not so common after all and courtesy is not so courteous anymore. To the 'common senser', keep spreading your senses and to the 'courteouser', keep being polite because when you are no longer in the picture, that's what people will remember you by, no matter how brief the encounter is ... Peace to the world amidst this catastrophic!

Why?

Why do people have less patience with their loved one? With strangers, their tolerance level is a lot higher than with someone they are closed to. People get impatient when their loved ones ask mundane questions, or make plain remarks about something. So what if it's a question already answered a while ago? So what if it's a common sense remark? Just because you do not tend to remember certain things you heard doesn't mean that we ARE supposed to remember everything you said.
Just because you have a bad day or a tiring day does not mean that you have the right to release your anger on anything trivial. Anger towers above all other, when anger flares up, not even love or compassion can overcome it. At moment like this, sometimes the other side may wonder what's the point of being there, or even trying to make conversation if one gets vicious response. Remember, unless you are perfect, accept others flaws, just as others accept yours! Doesn't it make you want to rethink about life? You are definitely right, life is as cruel as it is, you do not need these kind of craps as well! Talk about uptightness! Not forgetting that intelligence came with a price as well ... it's impatience!!! Thank goodness for blog, it takes everything. Maybe this is what those people need ... GET A BLOG!! THEN YOU CAN CRAP AS MUCH AS YOU WANT! And the best thing is, you cannot hurt its feeling ... it's emotionless! That's what you need right there ...

One minute of shock

Well, it is finally out! I couldn't keep it any longer in me. The burden was too heavy for me to bear. I spilled it out to him at last. At first he took it easy, maybe it had not hit him yet of the truth. Eventually, as reality set in, he became more and more stunned.
'How long did you know?' he spoke softly, so hush that I had to stop sobbing to comprehend him.
'A while ago,' I answered, not daring to breathe in case it broke the spell, releasing the real emotion hidden.
'I am who I am, I cannot change it, nor can I ignore it,' I added quietly. 'They need me and my enemies definitely cannot know about you. You are my pillar of strength, my universe and yet will be my downfall against evil. I wish I can disregard them, but they have no control of any situation, their only mistake was to be born among their enemies, who are getting stronger as we speak.'
'So this is it then?' he asked.
'This is it, my love, now I understand why I am different. This is my fate, just as it was fate that unite us. Maybe when all the chaos is over, maybe then fate will bring us together again ....' I stopped, as he became inconsolable the more she went on.
'Just go ... leave me alone.' he whispered.
I left, my heart shattered into many pieces as the distance separating us increased. This one minute had changed my life forever.
That was the last time I saw him. I never knew what had became of him. I visited once, during time of lapse, thinking that I could see him discreetly, but he no longer lived there anymore and I lost hope of ever finding him after many attempts. In moment like this, even my difference could not help me. I gave light to the lifeless, in return, I lost mine. We won eventually, but with victory meant nothing to me. No one to celebrate with, no one to listen to my stories. I became just another brokenhearted being ...
My name is Amelia Soulange and this is my story.

Got time?

One year of searching
And I finally found you
One month of hesitating
And I eventually told you
One week of planning
When I somehow surprised you
One day of restlessness
I was determined to say it
One minute of shock
Left me paralysed
One second of realisation
Of what I did
One decade of regret
I still cannot let go
A lifetime of heartache
I carry with me

The Power of Hogwarts!

Oh the misery we put ourself into just to get the 6th book we have been waiting for so long. AT LAST! The wait is OVER! I cannot believe that I actually went to the store at 11.30pm at night, waited impatiently among other Harry Potters' fans for Harry Potter and the half-blood Prince. Some came all dressed up, oblivious of the surrounding, too caught up in their fantasy world of magic. Mums waiting eagerly as their child/ren kept asking them ... 'Is it here? Is it here yet?' Those noisy bunches of lee .. I mean oats! Around 12.07am (yeah, they prevaricated. 12.01am my fesse!), 900 books were pushed out and there went Harrys' fans! Unimaginable transformation!! Thank goodness they are just plain Muggles, therefore none had proper wands! Can you envisage the catastrophe! Human turning into insects, reptiles, etc ... I finally managed to get one with the aid of a former neighbour I saw while waiting for the grand appearance. And it's not over yet, oh no!! Now it's the queue at the check-out. Of course as anticipated, all of the express check-out started to fill up rapidly. I eventually paid for the culprit and here am I. Now if you pardon me, I may have to let you go so that I can start my 6th year at Hogwarts ...

The Power of Song

Cost of a CD player: $250.00
Cost of your favorite CD: $15.00
Cost of gas to get your CD: $2.00
Cost of electricity to listen to your CD: $10.00
The memory you get from listening to the song few years later: Priceless!

For anything else, there's a J.O.B somewhere that you can do which pays for your other stuffs.

Got Luck?

Life is full of ups and downs, mostly downs. During the down times, it is especially doleful when your loved one is so far away and there's no other person who can offer the kind of solace you get from your significant other. You can only carry these doldrums to a certain point before you finally break down. Life is more bearable when you have someone to share it with, I guess. It's just annoying when someone told you that the downs will make you stronger. How strong do you want to get anyway?!! Probably just an excuse ... got to see life in the brighter side, right?

Got Wish?

So one night, I have came to a decision that I wanted to sky-dive before I get too old. I decided that PA would be the state I would want to do it. It was this one short time that I wished for it and never put any thought to it after that. So I got here a few days before independence day, lazing around watching tv when the news announced that this one place will be offering skydiving activity for $100. I will definitely have to forgo this wish right now. What's so amazing though, is that whenever one wishes for or even thinks of something, just once, is enough for it to come true. But when you keep wishing for something that you really need, or think you need, most of the time it doesn't come true. Oh well, I guess only the divine knows what's important for us. So for those out there, don't wish too hard, you may not have it granted. Got wish?

Could I?

I could wait for you
like Rat hole in your boot
Waiting to be fixed
I could wait for you
But what good will that do
But to leave me pricked

-D.R

Got Words?

Can you really say that you understand adults even when you are one yourself? I remembered when I was young, words came freely out and I don't have to worry about offending anyone because apparently, I realised now, kids can accept a lot of crap from other people better than adults. Now, everything one says has to be guarded and precise because, goodness know why, adults analyze everything ... they way you talk, the words you use, the expression you give, even to the tone of voice ... Well, I got to admit, there are some mentioned above that you really need to express gingerly, but to the extend of dissecting every little bit and pieces of your conversation ... that's kind of farcical isn't it? No wonder adults don't get to cherish the simple things in life. I realise that the older I get the less I talk because most of the time, it's better to keep my mouth motionless. I wonder whether it's a good thing because people tend to forget if they don't exercise their aptitudes often ... oh well, you never know, I may end up ameliorating my writing instead. So ... got words?

Got Way?

Got Weird?

What does it mean when you dreamt of something odd, such as bumping into someone you have never seen before, but were totally gregarious with the person in the dream, or being in a strange location? How about being in one unfamiliar place and return to the same place over and over again a few days later? Does this mean you may want to pay better attention to this kind of dream?

According to coolquiz.com, there are two different interpretations of why we dream, the physiological theory and the psychological theory. "Two underpinning physiological facts go towards supporting this theory of dreams. The first lies in the fact that the first two or so years of ones life, the most formative ones for learning, are also the ones in which the most REM sleep occurs. It follows that during this time of the greatest REM sleep, we experience the greatest number of dreams. The second physiological fact that lends credence to this theory is that our brain waves during REM sleep, as recorded by machines measuring the brain's electrical activity, are almost identical in nature to the brain waves during the hours we spend awake. This is not the case during the other phases of sleep.
Psychological theorists of dreams focus upon our thoughts and emotions, and speculate that dreams deal with immediate concerns in our lives, such as unfinished business from the day, or concerns we are incapable of handling during the course of the day. Dreams can, in fact, teach us things about ourselves that we are unaware of."

Oh well, as long as the unprecedented dreams are beautiful, I do not mind dreaming it repeatedly. Maybe one day when you travel far enough, you may find the place you dreamt of, or even find the person you saw in your dream. Isn't that just enigmatic?

How Do We Know?

We saw it through
Good, Bad, Ugly
We stood strong
But our hearts told us we were wrong
How do we know
When to quit
When to give up
When to throw in the towel
Do we decide with our hearts?
Do we decide with our heads?
How do we know?
How will it all go?
Where will it all go?
How will it end?
As we strive to survive
Know that you will always be
Near and dear to me
And this I want you to know
My love for you will be
More than I'll ever know

-csf

Got Door?

It is true what people say about when a door closes, another one will open. But it is also true that you must feel optimistic when a door closes because being rancorous about the closed door, or rather the reason for it doesn't help much in finding an open door. Thing happens for a reason. Even though it is hard to accept the iniquity, eventually one comes to realise that it wasn't such at all ... more of an opportunity that you dare not venture into for fear of the unknown.