Lullaby

They didn't have you where I come from
Never knew the best was yet to come
Life began when I saw your face
And I hear your laugh like a serenade

I slip in bed when you're asleep
To hold you close and feel your breath on me
Tomorrow there'll be so much to do
So tonight I'll drift in a dream with you

As you wander through this troubled world
In search of all things beautiful
You can close your eyes when you're miles away
And hear my voice like a serenade

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

-DC

Got time?

At 20, I found my first love.
At 22, I went on a roller coaster ride that lasted years.
At 25, I climbed a mountain with no peak.
At 26, I revisited the magical world.
May I find a place where I left my heart when I was 20.

Summer Solstice

Welcoming the summer solstice, at the same time giving thanks to all Gods and Goddesses (if plural for princess is princesses, then I presume the same goes for goddess), spirits of the living and the non-living on Earth. I am so grateful for the EXCELLENT news!

Fish, fish, oh my fishes!

Day 0: Water conditioned
Day 1: 3 fishes, 1 died
Day 4: Added 3, all dead ( didn't know why since I followed all the procedure required; left the bag in the fish bowl to stabilize the temperature, etc)
Day 5: Added 4, 2 died the next day
Day 6: Added 2 ...

Day 9: 1 died

Farewell mon petit chou

Frenchtoast

Sept. 2001 - May 17, 2006

Thank you for 5 wonderful years of cheekiness and headaches.
You will always be in my heart.
Je t'aime.

Welcome Ashton

What a flirt!
With grandpa and grandma


W'sup?

An Update

So what has been going on since I last wrote? Alot ... happy days, stressful days, hair-pulling days, tearful days, going-crazy days, pray-like-there-is-no-tomorrow days, disappointed days, suicidal days ... you name it, I experienced it. The semester was over a week ago, the relief was overwhelmingly welcomed. The students were difficult this semester, and challenged, mentally and concentratedly. That was where most of my crazy and hair pulling days and part of suicidal days consisted of. Then came the rejection, which was very hard to face. Then came the responsibilty of being a friend where the experience was eye-opening with dashes of anger management. Then there was the long awaited wish germinated, which brightened the hope in me. And now, last but definitely not the least, I am still waiting for the outcome of this wish ...

In the course of stumbling through the path, I found a new interest. By the way things are going so far, I clearly need lots of amelioration.

Welcome Spring, and the new lives you brought with you.

What did you say?

The most peaceful way to go ... carbon monoxide! No suffering, no pain ... you get to rest ... forever!

Snowboarding Rocks!!!

Feb. 07, 2006: Was I prepared after 2 hours of falling on my derrieres and getting bruises all over my body? You bet I do!!! Took 2 ibuprofen before bed and slept like a baby. Almost afraid to sleep too because I fell so hard the last 2 tries and hit my head hard. The next day, it was not as bad as I thought it would be with the pain reliever taking effect. I should have continued taking some the next day because by the second day, my muscles were so sore that it took so much effort just to open the door, as though one had dumbbells attached to each muscles. Every step felt so heavy. But it was defintely worth all the pain ... I would do it again given the chance. Snowboarding really rocks!!

I remember

"Do You Remember"

Do you remember when we first metI sure doIt was some timeIn early SeptemberYou were lazy about itYou made me wait aroundI was so crazy about youI didn't mindSo I was late for classI locked my bike to yoursIt wasn't hard to findYou painted flowers onGuess that I was afraidThat if you rode awayYou might not roll backMy direction real soonWell I was crazy about you thenAnd now the craziest thing of allOver 10 years have gone byAnd your still mineWe're locked in timeLets rewindDo you rememberWhen we first moved in togetherThe piano took up the living roomYou'd play me boogie woogieI played you love songsYou'd say we're playing houseNow you still say we areWe build our get awayUp in a tree we foundWe felt so far awayThough we were still in townI remember watchingThat old tree burn downI took a picture thatI don't like to look atWell all these timesThey come and goAlone don't seem so longOver 10 years have gone byWe cant rewindWe're locked in timeBut your still mineDo you remember?

ThankYou. "SheeTaime" ;)

New York City

Times Square

Ground Zero
Statue of Liberty

Here is the proof that someone did drop by yesterday, though I did not see the food being touched. Maybe the sound of the heater chased them away before they had a chance to enjoy it.

Nocturnal visitors

Had visitors yesterday. Saw the footprints. I think it was a family because the prints were in various sizes. They were looking for food since it is so scarce right now. Maybe I will put out some of Frenchtoast's food for them tonight. I think they will like the treats, especially the alfalfa. It would be great if I can capture them in video tonight . I want to see how many they are.

Snow snow go away

Freezing cold at night. So quiet, so peaceful.
So peaceful, so beautiful, yet a parlous
This was what I get when I got ready to leave the house.

Semester is over

Another semester came and gone. My my ... what an unusual one this was! Thank goodness it is over and hopefully I get to catch some sleep and do something wonderful. Take a break from teaching and rushing to finish assignments. Got the final grades posted and still have a stack of reports and finals that the students left for me. I can't really blame them. Who would want to see all those when one is relieved from the craziness?
Before I forget, I'd better cover part of Frenchtoast cage so that she is not too chilly. Her ears seem nippy.
Happy holidays and may all is fine!

Happy Thanksgiving

It's THANKSGIVING!!! I have so much to thank for, yet so much to pray for, but for now, I am just thanking the goodness in life. The snow has been falling since I opened my eyes, and it will keep falling for 2 days non-stop, according to the weatherperson. I just hope that no flight will be delayed so that everyone get to go home to their family safely, especially my sunshine. I am preparing my food a day early because I do not think I have enough time to cook tomorrow. It will be just the two of us with Frenchtoast but it may change, last minute arrangement ...

I was actually going to write something else but I strayed ... Oh yeah, writing story sucks! I tried it but I have to admit it is no fun at all. I may even end up with twisted spine and swollen wrist. Dangerous!!

One year of searching

It just happened one day when I woke up and realised that I did not belong here. I left and little did I know that it would be the most unusual journey I had. I reached the city and managed to get a room after spending several days looking. It was not much, but it would do for now. A week after that I got a job waitressing in a restaurant. And there, I spoke to you for the first time, exactly a year and a half after I started. But I knew you even before that. You would come in once a week, always alone, got seated, then asked for Perrier, always Perrier. Even till now, each time I see a bottle of Perrier, it reminds me of you, and it makes me smile. I looked at you when I had the chance, sometimes I noticed you looking at me, but quickly looked away when I set my eyes on you. I never served you, till that day. My heart nearly jumped out when I saw you. Maybe your heart does know who is the right one for you. You asked for your usual, then you ordered your dinner. Your voice, so deep, so soothing. You never understand how a voice can drugged you till you experience it yourself. When you were done with dinner, I asked whether you would like to have some desserts. You said yes if you get to share it with me. I laughed, thinking what a sweet talker you were, and how you would definitely break my heart. Indeed, it did not turn out exactly that. But you were serious about dessert, and I told you that I would get off work in 2 hours. You said ok, paid for your dinner and left. I thought that was it till I left the restaurant 2 hours later and I saw you. We started talking and you walked me home. Something special emerged after that day. We did not have dessert that day but we did the day after that, and the day after that, and the day after that... You own a bakery, 3 blocks from my place. It turned out that you were the one who saw me first and that was how you knew where I worked.... to be continued ...

Welcome Snow

Oh yeah, this is the time of the year filled with holiday spirits and with it comes the snow. It started yesterday evening when the temperature dropped from 45F to 25F and the sky was so cloudy, not the usual kind of cloudy that you see on a fine warm weather, you know the snow is definitely coming when you see this kind of cloudiness. It started with snow shower followed by flurry, then huge chunk of lake effect snow all through the night. By morning, everything was covered in snow. When I looked out of the window and saw a couple of snow covered pine trees with a lamp post in the middle, it reminds me of Narnia: the Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe chronicles ... sigh ...
Happy Winter, may I have a good one this year. For others, stay warm.

Until the day I get to see you in person ... you will be in my dreams, my thoughts, the doodles I draw, the picture I sketch, the dough I knead to your form, the shape I cut out from the cookie dough, the teddy bear that I make unconsciously... until then ... from a dotty unusual shrew-startled .... zzzzzzzz

God Only Knows

I may not always love you
But as long as there are stars above you
You never need to doubt it
I'll make you so sure about it

God only knows what I'd be without you

If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me

God only knows what I'd be without you