Happy Thanksgiving

It's THANKSGIVING!!! I have so much to thank for, yet so much to pray for, but for now, I am just thanking the goodness in life. The snow has been falling since I opened my eyes, and it will keep falling for 2 days non-stop, according to the weatherperson. I just hope that no flight will be delayed so that everyone get to go home to their family safely, especially my sunshine. I am preparing my food a day early because I do not think I have enough time to cook tomorrow. It will be just the two of us with Frenchtoast but it may change, last minute arrangement ...

I was actually going to write something else but I strayed ... Oh yeah, writing story sucks! I tried it but I have to admit it is no fun at all. I may even end up with twisted spine and swollen wrist. Dangerous!!

One year of searching

It just happened one day when I woke up and realised that I did not belong here. I left and little did I know that it would be the most unusual journey I had. I reached the city and managed to get a room after spending several days looking. It was not much, but it would do for now. A week after that I got a job waitressing in a restaurant. And there, I spoke to you for the first time, exactly a year and a half after I started. But I knew you even before that. You would come in once a week, always alone, got seated, then asked for Perrier, always Perrier. Even till now, each time I see a bottle of Perrier, it reminds me of you, and it makes me smile. I looked at you when I had the chance, sometimes I noticed you looking at me, but quickly looked away when I set my eyes on you. I never served you, till that day. My heart nearly jumped out when I saw you. Maybe your heart does know who is the right one for you. You asked for your usual, then you ordered your dinner. Your voice, so deep, so soothing. You never understand how a voice can drugged you till you experience it yourself. When you were done with dinner, I asked whether you would like to have some desserts. You said yes if you get to share it with me. I laughed, thinking what a sweet talker you were, and how you would definitely break my heart. Indeed, it did not turn out exactly that. But you were serious about dessert, and I told you that I would get off work in 2 hours. You said ok, paid for your dinner and left. I thought that was it till I left the restaurant 2 hours later and I saw you. We started talking and you walked me home. Something special emerged after that day. We did not have dessert that day but we did the day after that, and the day after that, and the day after that... You own a bakery, 3 blocks from my place. It turned out that you were the one who saw me first and that was how you knew where I worked.... to be continued ...

Welcome Snow

Oh yeah, this is the time of the year filled with holiday spirits and with it comes the snow. It started yesterday evening when the temperature dropped from 45F to 25F and the sky was so cloudy, not the usual kind of cloudy that you see on a fine warm weather, you know the snow is definitely coming when you see this kind of cloudiness. It started with snow shower followed by flurry, then huge chunk of lake effect snow all through the night. By morning, everything was covered in snow. When I looked out of the window and saw a couple of snow covered pine trees with a lamp post in the middle, it reminds me of Narnia: the Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe chronicles ... sigh ...
Happy Winter, may I have a good one this year. For others, stay warm.

Until the day I get to see you in person ... you will be in my dreams, my thoughts, the doodles I draw, the picture I sketch, the dough I knead to your form, the shape I cut out from the cookie dough, the teddy bear that I make unconsciously... until then ... from a dotty unusual shrew-startled .... zzzzzzzz

God Only Knows

I may not always love you
But as long as there are stars above you
You never need to doubt it
I'll make you so sure about it

God only knows what I'd be without you

If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me

God only knows what I'd be without you

Song of Love

The blue sky can dissappear
And the earth can very well collapse
Doesn't matter when you love me
I became ignorant of the world
As much as love flood my mornings
As much as my body trembles in your hands
I care less of the problems
Because you love me

I will go to the end of the world
I will paint the night yellow
If you asked me to
I will bring down the moon
I will steal the luck
If you asked me to
I will disown my homeland
Even my friends
If you asked me to

They can laugh at me
I'd do anything
If you asked me to
If one day,
you are taken from me
And if you die,
when you are far from me
It doesn't matter when you love me
Because I will die too
We will have the eternity
Among the most immense blue
In our world
No more problems to worry

Do you love me as I love you?

EG/MM/GP

Got Love?

Love is magical, love is beautiful
Love is caring, and it is wonderful
Love treasures, love remembers
Love does not discriminate
Love is everything sweet and nice
put into one.

But love gets greedy,
love causes pain
love suffocates and it kills
love destroys a soul
and hardens it
love causes dilemma

Only human can turn
something simple into
a complicated crisis

Have you?

Have you ever been in love
You could touch the moonlight
When your heart is shooting stars
You're holding heaven in your arms
Have you ever been so in love?
Have you ever walked on air
Ever felt like you were dreamin'
When you never thought it could
But it really feels that good
Have you ever been so in love?
The time I spent waiting
For something that was heaven sent
When you find it, don't let go
Have you ever said a prayer
And found that it was answered?
All my hopes have been restored
And I ain't looking anymore
Have you ever been so in love, have you?
Some place that you ain't leavin'
Somewhere you're gonna stay
When you finally found the meaning
Have you ever felt this way?
'Cause have you ever been so in love, so in love
You could touch the moonlight
You can even reach the stars
Doesn't matter near or far
Have you ever been so in love?

I have, and I am still ...
and I pray that I will forever
And I cannot thank
Everyone and Allthing
enough for making it happen!
Benez et protegez nous, svp

Is it you?

I have been so overwhelmed with this feeling of sadness for a few days now. I do not where it comes from at all. Thinking that it is depression I am getting, but then it is not the kind of depression I normally feel. At times, especially during the night, the intensity is so astounding that it has the ability to stop my breathing. Feels like every breath I take could be the last one, so harsh so savage, an onerous task. Where does this come from? Is it just a feeling from deep within me, or is it a sign of acknowledgement? If it is the latter, why me? Is this a gift, or is it merely a curse? A silent plea from the one who sent it out? Who am I to accept this confession? No possible explaination for it. Well, it is more logical to accept the former. This will go eventually, and life resumes its pace once again. I can only feel, I cannot grasp you. Let me breathe freely, show yourself, let it go ... and may peace be with you.

An opened mind

The norms of society influence the behavior and the thought process of the people who are in it. On a positive note, courtesy, consideration of others, and respect are some of the values that should be a norm in any society. However, many people are blinded to these positive values. Instead, they are more apt to absorb the negatives. In a society where the norm is to behave as though no one else is better than they, is just ignorance. We may debate over ethnocentrism. However, ignorance is not ethnocentric. People have to realize that we depend on each other to survive and thrive. When people refuse to leave their cocoons and open their eyes to the rest of the world, they stay stagnant in their perceived perfect society. They do not better themselves because they are already “perfect” in the society that they are. With their mind set on themselves being “perfect”, they have placed on their set of blinders. When others point out to them that they are not in sync with the more positive ways, they build resistance. Perhaps they are afraid of change, one might say. It is actually more of ignorance and arrogance. They believe strongly and constantly portray themselves as sweet and sensitive. Thus, unable to see that others are having difficulties in relating to the way that they are because of their hidden faulty ideology, that they refuse to recognize. Perhaps these people should look more closely at themselves before they ask questions.

I wonder

Tomorrow will be my first day teaching microbiology laboratories. I am nervous and at the same time excited about it. I just hope everything will be going well. Oh well ... we will see. Chance ou malchance, on verra bien .. comme toutes les choses dans ma vie! Got my favorite cd of the corrs, talk on corner. Love the album ... I missed the songs so much. Brought back memories of yesterdays ... one of few albums where I love most of the songs. Got to go now... relaxing to my favorite songs while preparing for tomorrow.
Peace to the world and Stop seal clubbing!!

Got Lesson?

Mistakes well learnt will never ever be repeated! That is so damn true!

Where are they?

Courtesy, like common sense, is getting more and more rare nowadays. Common sense is not so common after all and courtesy is not so courteous anymore. To the 'common senser', keep spreading your senses and to the 'courteouser', keep being polite because when you are no longer in the picture, that's what people will remember you by, no matter how brief the encounter is ... Peace to the world amidst this catastrophic!

Why?

Why do people have less patience with their loved one? With strangers, their tolerance level is a lot higher than with someone they are closed to. People get impatient when their loved ones ask mundane questions, or make plain remarks about something. So what if it's a question already answered a while ago? So what if it's a common sense remark? Just because you do not tend to remember certain things you heard doesn't mean that we ARE supposed to remember everything you said.
Just because you have a bad day or a tiring day does not mean that you have the right to release your anger on anything trivial. Anger towers above all other, when anger flares up, not even love or compassion can overcome it. At moment like this, sometimes the other side may wonder what's the point of being there, or even trying to make conversation if one gets vicious response. Remember, unless you are perfect, accept others flaws, just as others accept yours! Doesn't it make you want to rethink about life? You are definitely right, life is as cruel as it is, you do not need these kind of craps as well! Talk about uptightness! Not forgetting that intelligence came with a price as well ... it's impatience!!! Thank goodness for blog, it takes everything. Maybe this is what those people need ... GET A BLOG!! THEN YOU CAN CRAP AS MUCH AS YOU WANT! And the best thing is, you cannot hurt its feeling ... it's emotionless! That's what you need right there ...

One minute of shock

Well, it is finally out! I couldn't keep it any longer in me. The burden was too heavy for me to bear. I spilled it out to him at last. At first he took it easy, maybe it had not hit him yet of the truth. Eventually, as reality set in, he became more and more stunned.
'How long did you know?' he spoke softly, so hush that I had to stop sobbing to comprehend him.
'A while ago,' I answered, not daring to breathe in case it broke the spell, releasing the real emotion hidden.
'I am who I am, I cannot change it, nor can I ignore it,' I added quietly. 'They need me and my enemies definitely cannot know about you. You are my pillar of strength, my universe and yet will be my downfall against evil. I wish I can disregard them, but they have no control of any situation, their only mistake was to be born among their enemies, who are getting stronger as we speak.'
'So this is it then?' he asked.
'This is it, my love, now I understand why I am different. This is my fate, just as it was fate that unite us. Maybe when all the chaos is over, maybe then fate will bring us together again ....' I stopped, as he became inconsolable the more she went on.
'Just go ... leave me alone.' he whispered.
I left, my heart shattered into many pieces as the distance separating us increased. This one minute had changed my life forever.
That was the last time I saw him. I never knew what had became of him. I visited once, during time of lapse, thinking that I could see him discreetly, but he no longer lived there anymore and I lost hope of ever finding him after many attempts. In moment like this, even my difference could not help me. I gave light to the lifeless, in return, I lost mine. We won eventually, but with victory meant nothing to me. No one to celebrate with, no one to listen to my stories. I became just another brokenhearted being ...
My name is Amelia Soulange and this is my story.

Got time?

One year of searching
And I finally found you
One month of hesitating
And I eventually told you
One week of planning
When I somehow surprised you
One day of restlessness
I was determined to say it
One minute of shock
Left me paralysed
One second of realisation
Of what I did
One decade of regret
I still cannot let go
A lifetime of heartache
I carry with me

The Power of Hogwarts!

Oh the misery we put ourself into just to get the 6th book we have been waiting for so long. AT LAST! The wait is OVER! I cannot believe that I actually went to the store at 11.30pm at night, waited impatiently among other Harry Potters' fans for Harry Potter and the half-blood Prince. Some came all dressed up, oblivious of the surrounding, too caught up in their fantasy world of magic. Mums waiting eagerly as their child/ren kept asking them ... 'Is it here? Is it here yet?' Those noisy bunches of lee .. I mean oats! Around 12.07am (yeah, they prevaricated. 12.01am my fesse!), 900 books were pushed out and there went Harrys' fans! Unimaginable transformation!! Thank goodness they are just plain Muggles, therefore none had proper wands! Can you envisage the catastrophe! Human turning into insects, reptiles, etc ... I finally managed to get one with the aid of a former neighbour I saw while waiting for the grand appearance. And it's not over yet, oh no!! Now it's the queue at the check-out. Of course as anticipated, all of the express check-out started to fill up rapidly. I eventually paid for the culprit and here am I. Now if you pardon me, I may have to let you go so that I can start my 6th year at Hogwarts ...

The Power of Song

Cost of a CD player: $250.00
Cost of your favorite CD: $15.00
Cost of gas to get your CD: $2.00
Cost of electricity to listen to your CD: $10.00
The memory you get from listening to the song few years later: Priceless!

For anything else, there's a J.O.B somewhere that you can do which pays for your other stuffs.

Got Luck?

Life is full of ups and downs, mostly downs. During the down times, it is especially doleful when your loved one is so far away and there's no other person who can offer the kind of solace you get from your significant other. You can only carry these doldrums to a certain point before you finally break down. Life is more bearable when you have someone to share it with, I guess. It's just annoying when someone told you that the downs will make you stronger. How strong do you want to get anyway?!! Probably just an excuse ... got to see life in the brighter side, right?

Got Wish?

So one night, I have came to a decision that I wanted to sky-dive before I get too old. I decided that PA would be the state I would want to do it. It was this one short time that I wished for it and never put any thought to it after that. So I got here a few days before independence day, lazing around watching tv when the news announced that this one place will be offering skydiving activity for $100. I will definitely have to forgo this wish right now. What's so amazing though, is that whenever one wishes for or even thinks of something, just once, is enough for it to come true. But when you keep wishing for something that you really need, or think you need, most of the time it doesn't come true. Oh well, I guess only the divine knows what's important for us. So for those out there, don't wish too hard, you may not have it granted. Got wish?